Emotional Overload

This morning I woke up feeling really gross.  I attributed it to nerves because there was so much happening.  The thing is it never got better so I had to let Aubrey know since I had a session with her and the sweet Willow.  I did not want to get Willow sick so I let Aubrey make the call.  Needless to say we had to reschedule.  When it comes to babies I would always rather be safe than sorry.
This morning I saw the house I grew up in for the last time.  It came down today.  Definitely no thanks to the City of Clay, but that is a story for another day.  I have so much that I want to say about this, but right now there is not enough time and I have to admit, I am exhausted.  The flood of memories will flood the blog soon though so beware.  The thing is my heart is just sad.  So many memories.  The good news, memories cannot be torn down, the bad news is that there is no trigger there anymore.  Somewhere to drive by and remember that is where I came from.  It is just gone now. 

Danny had his last pack meeting today as a Bear Cub, he is now a Webelo.  It has all gone by so fast.  I still remember how proud he was to be following in his granddaddy's footsteps when he became a Tiger Cub and got his uniform.  Now it is time for a new uniform. 

Danny also had his basketball party, which meant a trophy.  He was pumped to play some Basketball with his teammates and get an awesome medal for the great year that they had.  GO SAINTS!!!

 We went by the new house and the electricians were there!  YAY Progress!!!  Also the porta potty had been delivered for the workers and this was so exciting for the boys, in fact they each had to go before we left. 

Well, it has been a long one and since I am behind I am going to move on. 

The Simplest Goodbyes Still Suck

So today was Monday and today Monday lived up to it's reputation.  At least for me. 

I miss my daddy so much every day.  Some days are easier than others and some days I wish I could just curl up and cry.  Today was definitely one of those tearful days.

We had to get rid of my daddy's boat.  It was not much but there were so many memories there and I found so much comfort driving by it in storage everytime we went to the lake.  Both of my boys had their very first ever boat ride on this boat.  I had so many memories.  Laughing moments from falling in at the pier when dad took Brandy and I out for a ride at Guntersville.  Horrifying moments of being caught in the worst storm while fishing with dad and Brandon at Guntersville.  Brandon's first ever bass was caught on this boat....granted it was the world's smallest large mouth bass, but it was his first and a great memory.  I remember working on the trailer with dad to get it ready.  So many small and large memories, but they are there.  I will always have the memories, and the pictures because you know I took a few over the years. For those I am thankful.  The years of just sitting had taken a toll on the boat though and it needed to go somewhere so that it could be used by others, even if only for parts.  Seriously I never knew that these small goodbyes could hurt, seems so trivial but it is what it is.  Thank you Brandon for the pictures, you know me so well!  I love you!

John Michael had a ball game tonight at Center Point.  They won and I was so proud of them for that.  I am a little shocked by the way that so many people acted at the game tonight though.  Seems like they should know these are kids....period.  I also did not know that John Michael had to do push ups but he did.  He says it was because he was last in the dugout if that is the case words will be shared sooner than later.  I just want to know what the deal is.  Then there was a time out called with the whole team except John Michael, which pissed me off.  He was hurt and that is not right.  Again, they are kids.  They shoud all feel as they are part of a team, and that was not the feeling that he had when he got in my van and cried all of the way home.  Needless to say I am not a happy momma and it was not the day to mess with me.  We have practice tomorrow so expect an update.  Not to mention that the ants found my toes again while we were there and I have over 40 ant bites from my ankles down.  Yes, down!  My feet are swollen and hurt and itch. 

I did cook a ham in the crock pot and it was pretty yummy.  I was proud of that as I am always looking for new ways to cook in the crock pot.  I love easy meals that pretty much take care of themselves.

Brandon went by the new house on his way home and the lumber was delivered.  They started working on laying out 2 sidewalls and had all of the interior walls drawn out on the concrete!  YAY!  I love progress and needed it today at least somewhere. 

So the boat was the first goodbye this week.   Not to mention tomorrow is May.  So goodbye to April as well. There is more to come so I am sure my emotions will be out of check all week.   please know that before you decide that messing with me or my children is a good idea.  Thanks!  Love you all!

The First Flood

This morning was the first school Mass that I missed. And while I wanted to and feel like I needed to go I also knew that I was needed at mom's and I know that God knows that. The boys' said that they would definitely thank Jesus for keeping so many people safe and to please continue to do so.

After I dropped the boys off I picked mom up. She was ready to go. We made our first venture down Old Springville Road since Sunday. This was a horrific sight and one that will forever be with me. Nothing is the same. The landscape has forever been changed. So many amazing memories, learning how to drive for one that all seemed to take place on Old Springville Road. While the road is still there it does not look the same.

Now to mom's.

So today we waited and waited on the insurance man. In the meantime we cleaned out the deep freezer and the refrigerator and freezer and took inventory so that she can get reimbursed for everything that she lost. This was the easy part of the day.

When we made our walk through for the morning and the rest of the ceiling in my old room had come down and was on the floor. This was unbelievable sight to see. She had her China and Crystal from when her and dad got married there and it was also on the ground. While there is a monetary value, the sentimental value for her cannot be matched.

Brandon headed to the attic to see what he could get out and down came my childhood or what was left of it. I guess when I was about 13 and wanted a "big girl's room" I packed up all of the things that I could not get rid of to save for when I had a little girl. Well, there was no saving them. While the value was all sentimental except for my Little Women Madam Alexander Dolls there is a lot to be said about watching it all come down.

When I started to really go through I had gotten the boys from school. There was actually a few things that they wanted so we boxed them up as they looked salvageable, just need some good cleaning. So many things went to the garbage. 6 bags of my childhood.

My first jewelry box. i remember dad buying it for me when I got my ears pierced. My Valentine teddy bear that daddy gave me when I was almost 8 years old. The baby doll that I had and played with so much that her head had to be reattached several times, even when I went to daycare for the first time and the wicked woman was so mad that I was up asking her that she locked me in a closet. My cheerleader uniforms from the days of cheering for the Huffman Raiders where I met some of the most amazing people that I am still in contact with. This list could go on for day, but that gives you an idea of where I was on memory lane all day. There were a few things that made me laugh, and that is what I chose for the picture today.

I would like to thank again all of the volunteers who have given of their time and talents to help. Thank you to Home Depot who took the time to come out and bring boxes full of things that will definitely be useful. Thank you to Chick-fil-A for the HOT chicken sandwhiches for lunch. Thank you to Shane Shirley who took the time out to get look at mom's house and give an opinion from a builder's perspective. Thank you to all of the people that I know I am forgetting. You have all done so much and it means so much! Thank you Mr. Ken and Lance for the boxes, they will definitely be useful as we start this packing process hard and heavy tomorrow.

Well, again a shower and the bed are calling my name. Until tomorrow!